"in a little while, this hurt will hurt no more..."-u2

staring at the keyboard, wanting to write, but having no words. the only thing that has been coming to mind all morning long seems to be song lyrics.

i have always believed there is great power in music. it stirs the heart and soul in a way very few things in this life can. it reaches into my pain and sadness as a comforting friend, letting me know that she understands; that she has been there and knows exactly how i feel. i take solace in this. it is remarkable.

i am a bit heartbroken, but the sadness will pass. the hurt will hurt no more. as stated by chris martin of coldplay, "...the hardest part was letting go, not taking part..." that is precisely the feeling of my heart. the taking part wasn't difficult, but the letting go will be.

i am a woman who cares deeply. it has been a blessing and a curse in my life. however, i wouldn't give that trait up. it makes me who i am. it also hinders the "letting go" process. at times i hold onto pain, just so that i can know that what i felt was actually real. how lucky i have been to be able to "take part."

so, i am grateful for music.

and once more, the feelings of my heart are summed up by lyrics:

"...louder, louder and we'll run for our lives. i can hardly speak i understand, why you can't raise your voice to say..."